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Sunday, June 22, 2003

Sun, 22 Jun 2003 01:17:34 GMT

hey i decided to make a new xanga. the name is westpoint_romance. i'll be using that one from now on. God bless! love meg

Sunday, June 22, 2003

Sun, 22 Jun 2003 00:18:14 GMT

i just got home from the wedding. o my goodness it was so beautiful. it was outside under all these weeping willows and flowers. thanks to the Lord, the weather was perfect; there wasn't a cloud in the sky and there was a light breeze. the only thing to complain about was the mosquitos, but i won't complain hehe. they're so happy and so cute! i wanted to cry...seriously i can't wait until i get married. it's so exciting to think about. courtney's dress was gorgeous...she was really stunning and so were all the bride's maides. haha the food was quite good too. drew grubbs did the ceremony part..he was awesome, as always. it was just an all around amaizing wedding. i definitely want an outside wedding, despite the bugs. haha i can just hand out bug spray to all the guests. yeah i'm a dork. anyways today was good. things are going well and it just feels so good to surrender everything to God and not worry anymore. He has always brought me through and He will continue to forever. He's my daddy. i couldn't help but pray throughout the wedding that i would be able to stand there in a white dress someday. it's so incredible to think about. it's all in His hands.

love in Jesus, meg.

Saturday, June 21, 2003

Sat, 21 Jun 2003 05:50:01 GMT

today has been really fun. right now i'm over at linsie's spending the night. earlier when she picked me up, we watched joe dirt (hilarious) with kyle and ben. then kyle had to go to work so the rest of us went to taylor's pool and watched everyone swim. adam, kate, pat, neal, and drew were there. so then ben and linsie and i left and went to visit kyle at home to cheer him up. i hope it worked hehe. we took a walk and watched the stars. it was nice hanging out with everyone. then we came back here and linsie and i played some monopoly and we're listening to some amaizing new Beloved. i can't wait till their show! somehow i've got to talk my dad into letting me go even though we start moving in that afternoon. anyways yeah things are going well. God is incredible as always and He's helping me through so much. i hope i can comfort others who might be going through the same thing that i did. let's see...tomorrow i have a wedding to go to. that's always exciting. i love weddings....hehe they make me cry. i'm way too much of a girl. but i guess that's not so bad b/c i am a girl. yeah i'm going to stop typing now, but i'll leave you with a scripture.

"I can do ALL things through Christ who gives me strength." -phil. 4:13
love meg

Friday, June 20, 2003

Fri, 20 Jun 2003 05:09:01 GMT

God has encouraged me so much. He won't even let me be sad. seriously...everytime i start to worry or my heart feels heavy, He just gives me rest and puts a smile on my face. i found this in my journal last night. i'm not sure when i wrote it but it's definitely from Jesus...

My beloved, i write to you tonight as an answer to your cry. yes i've heard you, and i was there everytime. please believe me when i say how much i truly love you. I'll whisper it in your ear as you dream the night away. I'll leave a rose beside your pillow where you lay. my sweetest dear, don't you know how much i cherish you? my love is as strong as death, a love that waters cannot quench, a love as tender as a kiss. let me be your Father. let my arms be your refuge and your comfort. let my words melt your heart. i'll be the one who never leaves and i'll watch you as you grow. you are a rose among thorns to me, so beautiful and rare, my precious daughter. can i chase away your lonliness? can i take his place? i will cherish your heart as if it were my own and i'll pick up all the shattered pieces that this world has thrown away. i will hold you and you can fall asleep in my embrace forever. you belong to me. always remember you belong to me. rest here, my weary one, and i shall give you strength.

Love, Jesus Christ.

He's all you need to live. He's all you need for love.

Tuesday, June 17, 2003

Tue, 17 Jun 2003 20:35:39 GMT

yo yo

it feels nice to sit. i've been working pretty hard today just throwing out stuff i don't need and giving stuff to goodwill and saving stuff that i do need. good grief i was so cluttered. i'm trying to get rid of was much as i can so moving will be easier. especially because my new room is a lot smaller than the one i have now, but it's blue! so that makes up for the size. hehe. i just had a chicken fajita hot poket and it was truly amaizing. anyone who's anyone should have one. haha yeah anyways i'm going to 7:22 tonight with my friend tatiana. i can't wait! i haven't been to 7:22 in a pretty long time. tomorrow is packing day number one because we finally have boxes. everyone is welcome to come by and help ...please...? hehe just kidding. i think i can handle it. maybe. i think i'm gonna go now and read my Bible. i definitely haven't been doing that enough lately. catch ya kids later.

love you in Jesus.

Monday, June 16, 2003

Mon, 16 Jun 2003 16:21:01 GMT

goodness i slept late today. i seriously woke up about 30 mins ago. i hate sleeping in..it makes me feel lazy...like i've wasted half the day away. i've got to start getting sleep at night so i can get up earlier. anyways looks like today is the first day of packing. well not quite because we don't have boxes yet haha but i've got to get some huge trash bags and throw out all the junk in my room plus donate stuff to goodwill. it's a lot of stuff and it's going to take forever but hey it's got to be done so i better get to it. despite all the work, i'm pretty darn excited about moving. i realized last night that i still had not thanked God for the beautiful house He has blessed us with because i've been "too busy". i hate that. i don't want to be too busy to spend time with Jesus. so from now, i'm going to make sure i'm not. i hope everyone has a great day. smile...you have a lot to be thankful for. and thanks so much to all my wondeful friends who have been helping me out...you're such a blessing from God.

love in Christ.

Friday, June 13, 2003

Fri, 13 Jun 2003 15:24:13 GMT

Brethen, i do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing i do... forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead. I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. -Phil. 3:13-14

Relient K "Forward Motion"

...when car crashes occur then i'll be what you were/ i'll see what i should/ when i see that it's good/ to experience the bittersweet/to taste defeat/then brush my teeth/ cause i struggle with forward motion/ i struggle with forward motion/we all struggle with forward motion/ cause forward motion..it's harder than it sounds/ everytime i gain some ground/ i gotta turn myself around again/

haha sounds like my life story. but i know Jesus is working hard on me. i like how things get easier every day, and how no matter how crazy it seems in the night, there's always hope in the morning. that's just what God does. and i love it.

Be encouraged and even if you give up on what God has called you to be, He'll never give up on you.

Thursday, June 12, 2003

Thu, 12 Jun 2003 21:01:00 GMT

So far, this week has been awesome. haha i've mostly just been dragging my sis everywhere to hang out with all my weird friends, but she's having fun so it's cool. it's crazy because we've been out everyday. today we slept until 1! so we decided to rent some dvd's and stay home. plus girl's bible study is cancelled. yeah i need to start getting to sleep earlier at night so i can get up in the morning. last night we didn't go to sleep until 4 am. not good. tomorrow we're going to the mall and to the movies and who knows what else. we'll figure out something to do. saturday, i'm hoping we can go to the copeland show. i've only seen them in show once and that was last august at furnace fest. but what i'm really excited about is the 28th!! wooo Beloved cd release!! i can't wait. and guess what? yesterday we bought the house we wanted! so we have to be moved about by june 30th... haha that should be pretty intresting. i'm pumped though. the house is really cute and i'll be going to central with all those weird kids i know. hehe only kidding. yeah that's what's going on in my life right now. i'm just so glad it's summer. by the way, everyone please watch the brendan leonard show. it comes on weekdays at 5:30pm on abc family. it's so hilarious. and he's the cutest guy! yeah anyway i think i'm getting off now. catch ya later.

love you in Christ.

Monday, June 09, 2003

Mon, 09 Jun 2003 17:08:50 GMT

my (half) sister, Hannah, came over yesterday and she's staying until the 15th. i hadn't seen her since september so we're going to have to do a lot of catching up. i missed her so much! yesterday we went out to eat with our mom and then hung out with brandon and went to a new young adult bible study that my youth pastor, drew, just started up. it was awesome. i'm not sure what we're doing today but we'll figure out something, and i can't wait until impact tonight. everything is going well. i still struggle at times, but we all do, and i have Jesus to hold my hand through it. i just ask Him to keep giving me patience and self-control. i need both of those things badly. i'm just so amaizied that God has given me this whole week to spend time with my sis and to be a witness to her. i love you Jesus. you're absolutely amaizing. i'm also just beyond blessed to have so many friends who care about me. thanks guys.

rock on in Christ. love meg.

Tuesday, June 03, 2003

Tue, 03 Jun 2003 16:32:03 GMT

it still amaizes me how much teenage drama can unfold in only 24 hours....

but the good news is, it's over and everything is working out for the best. i've realized it's not very hard to find all the positive things in your suffering. after all, the Lord, in all His goodness, is in control, so how can anything but the best come out of it? can't argue with that logic, huh? : )

i've finally let this relationship go. the memories, the moments, the tears, the laughs, the wishes and dreams, the words we said...all of these things i've laid at the feet of Jesus and i will continue to lay them down everyday until my heart heals. it was broken into pieces so that God could put it back together the way He desires it to be: stronger than ever and only for Him.

nothing will hold me back from Jesus Christ. satan pushed me down over and over, but like a wonderful friend said, "what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger", so i'm up again by the grace of God and ready to serve Him with all that's in me. my heart's desires are in His hands and He will take care of them...

"Seek first the Kingdom of God, and ALL these things will be added unto you." -Matthew 6:33

Best of all, i'm daily finding the Love that i've been so hungry for all of my life. it's Jesus Christ.